maybe ill drive a semi someday

so i had this thought the other day and really the whole thing is embarrasing (robert told me how to spell that) . i was driving in my car and i passed a big semi tractor trailor and i thought to myself that ill probably never know what its like to drive one. well for some reason this really bummed me out. i never really knew that i wanted to drive one but the thought of dying without ever sitting behind the wheel really distrubed me. what ever so to make myself feel better i made a pact with myself that i would not turn down the opportunity if it arose... turning 31 has been a little strange for me. among the realizations that came to me on my birthday were the awareness of some strange mental habbits. i realize that every and i mean every single time im in the car and i see mag wheels on another car i think about how much fun it would be to stick a carrot (yes carrot) into the moving wheel. the other thing i do is pretend that i have a powerfull laser that i hold and cut all the trees down for miles and miles and miles.... i bet your afraid that ill be driving a truck thinking all these batty things. and your right to be i guess.