so last nigh around 6 ish i was just making dinner and let me tell you it was looking real good. i was using my bright orange microwave (left over from the time when everything was se thru colorred plastic to try to look like a imac) and then there was this bright explosion out in the street. it was like fireworks right out in front of the house, sparks were falling as a cluter of wires were bursting into flames in the front yard. the plastic started melting off the wires and driped to the ground in little firey droplets. the fire dept showed up and they just kinda stood there looking up at this little firecracker in the sky like the rest of us. every minute or so it would explode till the wires were all burned up and the power to all the houses on the block was out. its strange to me when the power goes out. its like someone unpluged life and you are in this little limbo. its quiet and it would be nice if you werent so worried about getting the tv back on. i never think that it will bother me but when it happens its like " ok so now what do we do" there was some talk about going to a hotel for the night. then large trucks arrived, i was laying on the couch pretending they were aliens with gus. imagining all the mechanical sounds were spaceships and robots. lots of hustle and a nap later the lights were back on. it was a pretty show though. dinner was ruined but i ate what was salvagable today it wasnt bad. this neighborhood is a pretty lively one.
in this dream im in a old house all wood and dark. and im aware that its haunted and im starting to realize that im the only one in the house that can see the ghosts. they appear like dark shadowy fog and float after me. the closer they get the more i can make out the particular nature of each ghost. there is one ghost that scares me so much that i go crazy and scream at the top of my lungs and rol up in a ball when ever it comes in the room. it looks like a shadow of a slim person but thats all i can see. its so full of dread and evil. after a while i start running into the dark clouds when they apperar like some knda wierd commakazi. i dont know why im doing this. but it seems to help, i mean its really terrible each time i do it but it kinda makes them less in number. but it makes me compleetly crazy so by the end im just a pile of goo in the corner.
gus not only had the flu he had the 2nd confirmed case of dog flu in oregon!!! he is much better now and has stoped snotting on all the surfaces. he loves to bark now . and when i call him a little goblin he looks at me and shakes.
i was told that january or february might be when an exhibition of my new drawings might occur. mark brandau of portland modern is doing a great job of managing all the art stuff for me these days. im really glad he is around. he even sold one of my drawings !!! to someone in sanfrancisco! sometimes its nice when life is not such a struggle. its like you push and you push and every once in a while it slips a little for you. and its like this exhale. "sometimes everything is easy"
but hardly ever.
