i broke roberts toe

today i broke roberts toe. too much rough housing...
thomas at tract records has sent all the art for the release of "ghosts are knocking on walls" to the duplicating company. so its just a matter of time. release date is late august.
last night i drempt that there was a tiger, lion, and puma in the house. they were all angry and hungry and in dog cages. they broke out and i spent all my time trying to find a safe place to sleep and not get killed by big cats.

velcro kidneys

playing july 21st at noir 203 se grand at 11pm.
in diabeties class this week the teacher had a shirt with piillow stuffed organs velcrowed to it. when she would talk about kidneys she would rip the stuffed one off her smock and hold it victorious in the air like a viking the sick sound of velcro ripping still echoing in the air.

your cursed, im cursed, were all cursed, big deal.

so i had a pretty wierd dream and it was about 3 people (none of which were anyone i know) who are all being chased by ghosts of abusive dead parents. they are actually being chased around the world by these ghosts. and they see various therapists to help them deal with the ghosts in hopes of becoming well. here is a line one of the characters a woman said that keeps ringing in my head as kinda funny. she is talking to her a therapist after almost being run down by a car driven by the ghost of her father. and being forced to eat a whole rolled up bolt of carpet as some wierd ritual to temporarly banish her ghost for a bit. while here and her 2 other characters sit regrouping after the incident she says. " doctor im not sure im dealing well with the mental time travel nessasary to make me well. i keep getting lost" . I think the reason that this is resonating with me is that introspection is something that is really important to do from time to time and its kinda like a mental time travel, and its really easy to get lost and confused. there are so many ways that your brain can trick you. This dream had a lot of similarities to the movie i saw a couple days ago called "howls moving castel" . in the movie all the main characters have a curse on them and the plot follows how the characters deal with eachother trying to help eachother and some times hindering eachother all in the parameters of each individual curse. in my dream all the characters are being pursued by the ghosts of dead parents. they all try to help eachother but also get pulled into the others struggle. this is so much like human life. except the curse we are all under is our own baggage. i have yet to meet someone who is baggage free. the perills of human life is not only your baggage but the effects of every one elses baggage in our lifes path. in my dream the main characters start to realize that they will never out run these ghosts. and in the movie the characters never really get their curses lifted. they just kind of deal with it all. its a balancing act how to not let your baggage inpact to greatly on someone else and how not ot fall to far into someone elses personal battle that you for get your own path, or you get lost all together. so i guess the moral of my dream is dont get lost in your own head, dont get lost in someone elses head, dont do either as an excuse to get out of doing what you really need to do in order to better your self. dont be too self absorbed that you pull others into your dramma. know when its good to lend a hand and when its a trap. know when to stop thinking about it. like now. its really all pointless to worry about any way.

lolita and holywood forever

so tonight i had the pleasure of watching the old movie lolita in the holywood forever cemetary in holywood. they projected it on the wall of a mosaleaum in the center of the cemetery. there were a ton of people there. they all camp out on this empty grassy area and wait till it gets dark wile a dj plays exotica . and you are flanked by palm trees and crypts and orange glowing dusky sky. and what a great movie. i was in creature comfort bliss with my snacks and blankets and newly purchased target folding chair. adn all for 10 clams. what a great time. im itching to get back to portland and start practicing for my show on thursday. i also have the artwork for "ghosts are knocking on walls" finished i just need to order a sticker and narrow down a pantone color. but things are moving really fast on it. im glad its been waiting for 2 years to be heard so that makes me feel good. i had some dreams last night but i cant remember them. i saw a strange dream like movie called howls moving castel the other day and i think it has shorted my dream recog function by being such a strange one. its good though i suggest you go check it out if you like random plot shifts and japanese animation. ok good night

pile of hair in the woods

so there was this story on the news about a pile of human hair found by a hiker in the cascades. and its all i can do to not picture this pile of blond locks sitting shaded by pines with a thin shaft of light illuminating it like some shrine to a mysterious saint. any way i think that as omnious as it seems its probably some wacky hair cut gone wild. a hiker decides he needs a haircut or something. but it will be the desk top image of my brain for some time. the show at noir last night went really well. i playled some new songs and recorded a bad cassete of the show for thomas at tract. here is the list of songs 1 whistle song. i have been starting my set with this one lately. its also on the new comp ball of wax. 2 was a new song called HERE COMES THE ICE about wierd killer ice storms. 3rd was devil in your smile 4th amyl nitrate 5th long night, 6th candels an old bogy creek re make. 7th the forrest a new one about killer monsters in teh woods. levi fuller adnd amateur radio operator put on great shows. they are great guys. im playing again at noir next week the 21st at 11. ill post more about that later. i wonder how many un discovered piles of hair lay cozy in the setting rays of the sun nesstled amongst pine needles there are tonight. i hope they sleep well tonight.

levitating nervous

funny thing i overheard today at the chinese buffet today. cranky old man says to his whining wife "if you want sympathy you can find it in the dictionary between shit and shitless" he he, the real funny part is that smypathy is not between shit and shitless in the dictionary. i just got the mp3 file today of tiger saw's cover of my song "mt erebus" for tracts comp of swapped songs. it sounds so great that i dont think it deserves to be called my song anymore. they did a great job. i covered pink nasty's trench coat blues. it was challenging. i dont think i quite hit the mark on it. but its all done and its out of my hands. ok so here is last nights dream. im in a college dorm and its christmas break so no one is there. its not the dorm that i went to school at. but im there alone and i decide that i want to go looking thru everyones stuff for entertainment. so as im snooping here and there, and i hear running water. it turns out that there is someone else in the builting and they are taking a shower in the halway. so i manage to hide before the halway showerer sees me. but just as that happnes all the students are suddenly there in my panic as im trying to run away i notice i can float glide and levitate. so the rest of my dream is me getting better at it and levitating all over the palce. i woke up thinking i could still do it. i really almost dove into the air when i got up. it was pretty wierd. i thought about it all day that id never know i couldnt glide if i didnt try it. and maybe if i really believed it it woudl happen. i want to be a flying man. always have.

fast comets

i started practacing for my show at noir on the 13th of july today. maybe try some new songs and noises and stuff. it was a little frustrating. today had a wierd vibe. i guess any day that has bombings all over npr makes for a tense day. at work im flanked by guys who think we should nuke the middle east and korea. i feel so tired of defending my liberal point of view so id dont argue anymore. and it seems anymore that everyone is turning agressive republican. it really bugs me. ahhh well.
on another note it seems that tract records is going to fast track the release of the cd i recorded in philly at sound gun almost 2 years ago "ghosts are knocking on walls" along with a split 7" with dereck joe brockett out in the fall. busy busy busy i think the 7" is gonna come with a button. neat. the highlight of today was a video on nasa.gov that showed a commet smacking into a probe. the images are cold black adn white and beautifull. thats all for today

shirts and mountains and late for work

so last nights dream was more of an anxiety dream about impending return to work on tuesday. i lived with my wife (wich is strange on many levils) in a house that is kinda like a tree house way up in the mountains kinda like a floating house. the house hase a wooden deck around it and below that is just clouds. so i get up late for work and i need to find work shirts. but my work shirts are on a line that streaches out to mt hood adn im tugging on this line and its all urgent and im almost falling off. but i did get all my shirts off the lilne. the whole time my wife is slamming doors and screaming. she has a blurry face. this is a strange one in that is it so boring. funny how such a boring dream can be such a action packed adventure when you are having it . "the sagga of the shirts on a high close line" a ablock buster for sure. mt st hellens did something yesterday. some of the lava dome caved in or something. the usgs is so slow to report new stuff. i have to admit that i was a little disapointed to hear that the dome collapsed. i had heard something that if it kept growing that in 10 years it would look kinda like it did before it blew in 1980 and i was hoping to watch a mountain grow. then it would blow up all over again. mt st hellens seems to know that we want . its like a ratings monger. im glad volcanoes are finally getting off the whole thousand years between activity thing. we humans get bored fast. mt st hellens delivers the goods thats all. so i was looking forward to watching a mountain form in 10 years instead of 1000. maybe im too impatient. i had this daydream the other day where i was staring at the table and thinking about atoms. (everyone does that right???) any way i was thinking about that twilight zone where there is a race of microscpoic icon buliding people. do you know that one? any way i was thinking about how the solar system is kinda like a mollecule or an atom. and maybe the whole thing is kinda like when you take 2 mirrors and place them side by side and get the never ending room thing. well what if planets and atoms are like that never ending in both scales. huh probably not.

motor candel

my first post. woo hoo , well today i learned how to change a spark plug on my vespa. for the first time i did something involving a engine that worked. man it feels good. i have been spending a lot of time lately watching gay softball. and im suprised how entertaining it is. lots of witty banter. and no one seems all that upset if they loose. and the chants are pretty funny. last night i vistited my friend scott while he was dj-ing at the dirty duck. its always neat to go to a gay bar and hear good old metal. he also gave me a alice cooper cd that ill listen too in my car soon. the night ended with me racing home as fast as i could hoping to make it to my bathroom. it was a race against time but i won. thank god. i had some bazar dreams about nuclear motorcycles. there was a warehouse that i stumbled on . dont know why i was looking thru warehouses but i was and i found this one and it had a red nuclear motorcycle. when you started it a wave of nuclear evil fire would go flowing out in a circle around the bike. so my dream was basicly me hiding everytime someone wanted to start the nuclear motorcycle. which was about every couple seconds. i would go running behind stuff leaping and diving. sounds funny but i woke up in sweats. oh yeah and i woke up on an air mattress. maybe thats the problem. sleeping on the floor in a basement is like tempting all the evil spiders in the house to come climb in your ears and make a home. i checked thought and im ok and spider free. i think.